Thinking of you today... / John Plourde (Dad of an Angel )
Dearest Denise
I know that it has been a while since I have stopped by Austin's site. I think about you often and I wanted you to know that I understand your pain and anguish of wanting your son home with you. It is so difficult to realize that they are gone forever from our physical presence. I hope you find some comfort in knowing that Austin is always by your side and will never leave his loving mom.
These days (the further out we are) may even feel more difficult than early on in our grief...I think that is because as we begin to understand that death (even our child) is forever it hurts even more. I know that your son just made a mistake "playing" that terrible "game". I am SURE that if he knew the final consequences he would have done different. Sadly he did not realize what could (and did) happen.
Denise Please take care of yourself and I will keep you in my prayers each day.
Our Life / ShawnJustine Perry (ChildhoodGirlfriend)Read >>
Our Life / ShawnJustine Perry (ChildhoodGirlfriend)
So The Two Of Us Started Gymnastics At A Very Young Age..5 To Be Exact. Me Being Very Flirtatious Followed Austin All Over The Gym Until Finally I Stopped Him And Said "Cant You Tell That I Like You? Dont You Like Me?" Austin Caught Off Guard Looks At Me With A Blank Stare And Replied "Sure.?"It All Started That Day. From Then On We Were Unseperable. Going To Water Works The Movies The Skating Rink And Staying The Night With Eachother! We Played Dress Up At His House All The Time Cops Star Wars And Matrix Was Our Favorite. For About 5 Years We Had The Best Times..Until I Moved To Sacramento For Gymnastics. We Were Both Heart Broken. After Moving back home I Found Out The Terrible News.... I Was Speechless. The Little Boy Who Always Put A Smile On My Face..Gone. All I Can Do Is Look Back On The Great Memories We Had Together! For Instance.. Austin And I had Been 'Together' For I Cant Tell You How Longg Anyways... We Were At Water Works And We Bought Matching Surf Board Necklaces. As Austin Was Putting Mine On Me The Little Thing That Hooks It Together Broke Off. Austin very mad Takes The Necklace And Stomps Back Over To The Little Store And Exchanges It For A new One..As He Was Walking Back He Sees Me Waiting And Holds Up The Necklace With A HUGE Grin On His Face! He Was Always So Good To Me! Another Time We Were Going On A Date To The Skating Rink And The Movies..When I Got In The Car He Handed Me A Ring That He Had Bought Me. I Was So Excited I Took Off My Great Great Grandmas Ring That My Mom Had Let Me Wear And Put On His Wring on The Wedding Finger Of Course.. The Day Went On And We Had Alot Of Fun. When I Returned Home I Showed My Mom The ring Austin Had Bought Me Unfortunately She Noticed My Great Great Grandmas Ring Was Missing From My Hand...Ooops. I Lost It! My Mom Was Pretty Upset And We Searched Everywhere For It..Never Found It. Of Course I wasn't Too Upset About It Cause I had Austins Ring On(: We Were Ingaged We Said. ha Good times. There Are So Many Good Memories I Have Had With Him And I Wouldn't Trade Them For The World!
SUCH A TRAGIC THING TO HAPPEN TO SOMEONE SO YOUNG, I KNOW YOUR PAIN ALL TO WELL, HAVING LOST MY OLDEST SON. HE DIDN'T DIE IN THE SAME WAY, BUT TO US AS MOTHERS, IT'S SO DEVASTATING, NO MATTER WHAT THE CIRCUMSTANCE, AGE, OR THE HOW OF IT~KNOW THAT YOU ARE IN MY THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS AS WE TRAVEL THIS DIFFICULT JOURNEY~ONLY THOSE OF US WHO HAVE SUFFERED SUCH A LOSS, TRULY KNOW HOW BAD IT HURTS~I GET MY STRENGTH FROM GOD, BUT I AM STILL OF A HUMAN HEART, AND IT HURTS, SOMETIMES SO BADLY, I CAN HARDLY BREATHE. READING ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED TO YOUR PRCIOUS AUSTIN, BROUGHT TEARS TO MY EYES, AND HEART. I HURT FOR ALL THE PARENTS, GRANDPARENTS, ETC. WHO ARE ON THIS ROAD ALONG WITH US. KNOW THAT YOU ARE THOUGHT ABOUT TODAY AND EVERYDAY. SOMEDAY, WE WILL PUT ALL OF THIS BEHIND US. I'LL SEE YOU THEN~
Happy Halloween! / Carole Mom To Angel Heather Bates (connected by angels )Read >>
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Love and prayers / Carole Mom To Angel Heather Bates (connected by angels )Read >>
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I love your video!!!!! / Diante Wayne ((Braden Erickson's friend) )Read >>
I love your video!!!!! / Diante Wayne ((Braden Erickson's friend) )
Denise,
The video that you have just made was amazing. I saw Braden's. I started to cry when I saw his face on every picture. I miss him. I saw your son's pictures. He is so cute. I wish I had a friend like that. Thank you for making a video of my friend. That will keep his memory alive. You and your son are in my prayers.
Tribute for Austin & Mom / Family Of Lisa Maas Read >>
Tribute for Austin & Mom / Family Of Lisa Maas
We just wanted to share this with you and send our love and prayers. We had added to Lisa's legacy page Sammii and Kelsey who were also victims of this game. Kelsey's dad sent your name along and we added Austin as well to hopefully inform others of this deadly game. Take care and know that you are in our thoughts. Laura, Vic and Our Girls
Thank You / Heather Blythe (Bradens Mom )
I wanted to thank you for the beautiful videa you did of our angels. They will never be forgotten and with videos like yours not only will we remember but so will the world. Thank You. Heather Close
Thoughts/ Carole Mom To Angel Heather Bates (connected by angels )Read >>
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Happy Easter. / Carole Mom To Angel Heather Bates (connected by angels )Read >>
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First I want to offer my condolences. I can't imagine your pain, but I need to thank you for making others aware of this game. I remember kids playing this game when I was a young teen. I had no idea it was still around and that children were dying because of it. I have an 8 1/2 yr old son and without this information, I would never have thought to discuss this with him. We try to make him aware of dangers around him, like drugs and alcohol, but I am sure that he, like other boys, would think this is harmless. I thank you SO MUCH for sharing this. I hope that knowledge will lead to prevention. I will pray for you and your family. Again, Thanks!
praying in ga / Kelley Ballew (friend of mothers )Read >>
praying in ga / Kelley Ballew (friend of mothers )
denise,there are no words to say how i feel for you.my heart aches for you.i cannot begin to imagine the pain you feel.i pray for you daily. Close
I am so very sorry........ / Lyndi Trost Braden's Gramma Read >>
I am so very sorry........ / Lyndi Trost Braden's Gramma
What a tragic loss of a beautiful young man. A terrible price to pay for a bad choice. My 13 year old grandson died participating in this activity on May 20th, 2005. I understand your pain and wish you peace. We will see them again but the wait is long. Close
I think of you and all Austin's friends, a lot of the time. I want you to know, I keep you in my prayers. I know there are no words, that can touch the pain you feel, but please know there are people who can listen and relate.
It seems the more I learn and research the 'choking game', the more it becomes obvious, that all the lives, that it claims have so very much in common-- All wonderful, bright, athletic children with nothing but an amazing future in front of them.
If you ever need to talk, share memories, or anything...let me know.
Happy Valentines Day / Sara Messer (angel mommy to Cody Creech )Read >>
Happy Valentines Day / Sara Messer (angel mommy to Cody Creech )
Happy Valentines Day, Austin. Send your mother lots of love. She misses you a lot. Have fun with Cody eating lots of candy this month. Love, Cody's mommy, Sara Close
Valentine/ Carole Mom To Angel Heather Bates (connected by angels )Read >>
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Try to smile....for Austin! / Jennifer Janssens Read >>
Try to smile....for Austin! / Jennifer Janssens
Hi Denise,
After hearing you tell of your beloved son, on Monday night, as well as sharing about the anniversary of your loss, I continue to find myself thinking of you and wishing that I could "wiggle my nose" and make all of your PAIN go away. Since I can't seem to make that happen (ugh) and couldn't sleep tonight, due to wondering how your night of rememberance went, I decided to get out of bed and look for something online about Austin.
This is what I found....
His site is beautiful that you have put together in his honour. It educates, keeps his story alive and helps those who knew and loved him to stay "connected". I really see HOW much you loved him. PLEASE try to know HOW much he loved YOU. Without even having known him, I guarentee you that he would be devestated to see you in so much pain. You don't ever EVER have to "let him go" but you are, in no way, betraying him by letting yourself heal. Allow yourself to feel joy from the memories that you and Austin created.
I'm sure that you already know these things.... "Easier said than done", right? That may be true, but more than anything, remember that it takes time to heal a broken heart. The sun WILL shine again...and he'll be right there, basking in it with you....because he'll NEVER leave your heart!
Much love and all of the comfort that I could possibly wish upon you,
i lite a candle for you / Cody Mahrt (friend)
i miss you austin and so does everyone at pacheco we werent close friends but you still always made me happy to hang out with you hope it's nice up there